Today has been… I don’t even know what. I’ve been exhausted all day. Mom has been calling because she’s worried about me being tired from antihistamines. Even though she knows they make you tired. Apparently my health still freaks her out. I don’t think that’s ever going to change. Anyway, I woke …
Still not ready to go into details about the trip. My mood is like a yoyo. I haven’t had one whole entire day be good since I came back. Why am I not ready? Partially because of sadness. Most of the time I’m grieving a loss, it seems. And even …
It’s been over a year. To be fair, I kept it going for a while online until I recently decided that I missed the writing itself. A lot of things have changed and yet, a lot is still the same. We moved, April of 2015. All of a sudden, we …
I’m not doing well. The second day now of awkward nonsense. Yesterday was more filled with cranky and annoyance and disappointment and even slight anger/outrage. Most of the day today has been all about avoidance and feeling resigned to the reality of things. At some point a little while ago …
That’s all I get. No questions asked. No discussion. No nothing. A unilateral decision. An expectation that I will accept this. That I will bend and compromise away all. Because, hey….that’s my role, right? That’s my position in all this. I am supposed to take what I am so graciously …
Is this going to turn out to be the longest year in memory? This past Thursday was tests day again. Every 6 months, I repeat the same tests and eye exam for the study I’m part of. Pretty quick and painless. The upcoming Monday however? That’s probably gonna be not …
Life is fucking surreal. In general, on and off, life itself shifts from mundane and pedestrian to some kind of normal middle ground to the weirdest, most random and surreal shit you’ve ever seen. Currently, my life is so fucking surreal. I was going to say chaotic at first, but …
I need a vacation. Preferably somewhere far away from everything, a cabin in the woods or something. I can’t deal with life anymore.
The weather is lovely although I could do without the full days of rain. Life is pretty good right now. I’ve finally reached a state of….normal? That’s the best word I can think of right now to describe it. The fatigue is absent, my memory has been improving and in …
The time of no sleep is over. It was a fun 2-3 weeks. I leveled out to a normal for a couple of days and then it went downhill. Had a couple of days of fatigue and am now at a point where it’s gotten a bit better, but I …