I’m a terribly negative person, huh? I feel like the only times I write something is when drama is happening or if I’m sad or upset about something. Put it all together and it appears as though my life is just bad constantly, which is really not even remotely true. …
I’m bored. I spend 99% of my time in this apartment. Current mood: annoyed, irked, bored, restless. It’s Saturday. I get it; he spends most of his time not at home, around others so he’s completely cool with just being here on the weekends. As long as I get out …
I guilted my mom right back after that obnoxious email of hers and she apologized and realized she was being an ass. So there’s that. On the other hand, there is yet again conflict with K, although this time it’s all on him being an ass. He was saying yesterday …
You know, one of these days I’d really like to write something all good in this thing. Every time things start looking up, something inevitably happens. I’m so sick of it. My mom sent me an email in the middle of the night last night, going back to complaining and guilting …
I’m extremely anxious. To make matters worse, my choice of examiner (Calle, who so graciously accepted in a heartbeat) might fall through because the damn examiner group feels like it should be a professor and Calle isn’t one. So now I have to wait for them. Fucking shit. I really …
According to what I see in main, she’s been up half the night and decided to quit. There was a whole wall of text of complaints. I seriously think that a lot of her stress is due to her not being used to working, not knowing the job itself because …
Today has been… I don’t even know what. I’ve been exhausted all day. Mom has been calling because she’s worried about me being tired from antihistamines. Even though she knows they make you tired. Apparently my health still freaks her out. I don’t think that’s ever going to change. Anyway, I woke …
Still not ready to go into details about the trip. My mood is like a yoyo. I haven’t had one whole entire day be good since I came back. Why am I not ready? Partially because of sadness. Most of the time I’m grieving a loss, it seems. And even …
I’m not doing well. The second day now of awkward nonsense. Yesterday was more filled with cranky and annoyance and disappointment and even slight anger/outrage. Most of the day today has been all about avoidance and feeling resigned to the reality of things. At some point a little while ago …
Is this going to turn out to be the longest year in memory? This past Thursday was tests day again. Every 6 months, I repeat the same tests and eye exam for the study I’m part of. Pretty quick and painless. The upcoming Monday however? That’s probably gonna be not …