Writing still hasn’t happened. The past 3 nights have been filled with awkward, feeling shitty with K. One night due to me saying I feel like a guest and will never feel like his/their apartment is my home. Second one due to looking at naked ex-pictures which was all ok …
Family gathering weekend was a blast, and for once I was not the epicenter of any drama. Unbelievable! I’m on my second week of Gilenya treatment and it seems to be working just fine – no side effects or anything. The drama is still not fully over – family part …
I really hope the majority of the drama is over. Had a serious talk with CH, things got mostly resolved and I mostly feel better. It’s going to take some time to get over it completely because feelings were hurt. But I’m glad we did it and it’s good to …
Where to begin. The Easter USA talks did not go over very well. Questions arose which made me decide to tell them all about me and N. Suddenly, the USA thing was forgotten and hours were spent on them yelling, calling me names and just really coming down hard on …
The days have been going by slowly. It’s been 3 weeks since I left my other half. 3 weeks that somehow feel like 3 months. The past couple of days have been fairly quiet thank God. There’s been some awkwardness and crap on and off, but still better, a feeling of …
I don’t really know what the overwhelming/most common feeling is these days. It fluctuates too much, too wildly. Conversations are ongoing, good and bad. Yesterday we talked more about the first date with Magdalena and how it went, how it felt, what happened. It seems that it was pretty much …
Almost 8 years…over. Done. We talked and talked, back and forth, trying to figure out what’s going on, why things are so fucked up and ended up realizing for the first time (me, not him) that our relationship hasn’t been a relationship for the past 2 years. At least. He had noticed …
He left right before 7PM yesterday. I asked him, more than once, to just text me a quick msg to let me know whether or not he’d be coming home. NOT A WORD. Nothing. All evening. All night. Yes, he may have passed out. I get it, it happens. But …
7PM. Should be interesting. Life seems pretty good for N nowadays. Life for me is still mostly in the gutter. No change. A lot of weirdness, talking/non-talking with K the past few days. Almost fighting. I don’t like it at all. But we’ll pull through. I need change. I need …
Woke up at midnight. He didn’t even think to wake me up. I was so shocked and upset that I cried for like 10 minutes straight. The rest of the day – utter bullshit. I should have stayed in bed. A mess of feeling shitty, infecting K, ending it in tears. …