It’s Friday and I’m sitting here thinking: when did I turn into this insecure, negative Nancy? I mean, yes I’ve been through some shit in my life in general, a lot of that has been concentrated to the past 6 months or so, but really overall….it’s been one hit after …
I hate my brain. I hate my insecurities. I hate that I’m bothered by the “first thing in the morning, last thing before bedtime” whatsapp conversations, the almost daily “I miss you”-s, the nicknames that I never got and how insignificant it makes me feel despite me having all I …
Drama-filled morning over a non-issue prefaced by other issues and 4 hours of talking/non-talking/arguing/crying. Lovely way to start the day, but it all got resolved thankfully and the rest of the day turned out pretty nice actually. Went to the movies and saw Sully. Really good movie, lots of drama, …
I’m bored. I spend 99% of my time in this apartment. Current mood: annoyed, irked, bored, restless. It’s Saturday. I get it; he spends most of his time not at home, around others so he’s completely cool with just being here on the weekends. As long as I get out …
Well. it’s been a while. Life ran away. It’s been an interesting ride thus far. Everything got off to a really shitty, rocky start with departure day. My flight to London got cancelled, I was notified 3 hours before departure. I figured they’d rebook me or I’d just get another …
I completely lost my shit today. Worst day ever. Firstly, N announces, out of the blue, as he’s making dinner: “Oh by the way, Kim is on webcam just FYI.” Talk about having a ton of bricks dropped on my head. This made me so ridiculously uncomfortable in my own skin …
My weird mood passed after spending a few hours organizing our stories. I had an idea. I’m making a book, as a gift for K. Printing our stories etc. I even wrote a new one. Doing that got me out of my mood and into a good one, at least …
I’m tired. Not due to a lack of sleep. I’m tired of weird moods and today I’m in a weird mood. Everything bothers me. It’s like a weird mix of irritated, sad, resentful, lonely. I think part of it is the always-present sense that everyone is out there living their …
According to what I see in main, she’s been up half the night and decided to quit. There was a whole wall of text of complaints. I seriously think that a lot of her stress is due to her not being used to working, not knowing the job itself because …
Writing still hasn’t happened. The past 3 nights have been filled with awkward, feeling shitty with K. One night due to me saying I feel like a guest and will never feel like his/their apartment is my home. Second one due to looking at naked ex-pictures which was all ok …